Friday the 13th

Ahhh...Friday Feb. the 13th... It brings me back to an old memory. Way back in 7th grade. It was the day my first boyfriend and love Bryan asked me out. Now Bryan totally took me by surprise because I had no clue that he liked me. From the very beginning of 7th grade I knew I liked Bryan. Now Bryan became one of my best friends. He was part of my circle...it was Bryan, Jon, Dustin, Amber, Sabrina, Amy, Mari, Sarah, and I. Man, I miss all of them more as I typed their names. Jon who was best friends with Bryan and I told me the day before I left to go on vacation for Winter break that Bryan liked me. I thought that Jon was joking because he knew how I felt about Bryan and Jon does like to make a lot of jokes. Though I also kept hearing from other friends that they thought Bryan liked me as well. I kept thinking no its impossible cause I was convinced he liked one of my other friends Cheyanne. Cheyanne was this girl who lived 3 houses down from me and was a gorgeous blonde with a great personality. I liked her...everyone liked her. Plus they're both Mormons and knew that their parents would approve. I mean I'm not saying that their religion is one of the reasons why I couldn't believe he liked me...I just kept hearing that they stick together. Anyways, Cheyanne came up to me after school one day cause she had heard that Bryan might like her and I liked him and what not so she just wanted to assure me that she had no interest in him and wanted to say that she thought Bryan might like me as well. Now I'm thinking that maybe he does like me. Bryan never said a word to me or showed me that he liked me as more than a friend. He treated me like he always treated me.

February Fri. the 13, it was during lunch and we were all hanging out in our usual spot down by our 5th period class. 5th period I remember was Mrs. Pettite's math class. My group drove her crazy because we were always talking to each other. We all sat in alphabetical order and Bryan and my last name both began with a P. He sat right behind me. So I was hanging out with Amber, Amy, and Tabitha (Jon's gf) talking when Jon and Bryan came up to us. Bryan asked me to come with him for a second. I didn't think anything of it because Bryan and I had talked alone before but I was also a bit nervous. We moved over to one of the trees and he pulled out a box of chocolate and this small love book called a Key to Love behind his back and asked me to be his girlfriend. I was completely in shock that I believe it took me a good minute or two to say yes. As soon as I said yes we hugged and Jon came running up and stole my box of chocolate. I never even got one piece of chocolate. Jon had passed out all my chocolate....I guess that was his way of having everyone celebrate with us.

Bryan had told me that he had always liked me but didn't think I liked him until Jon blurted out that I liked him. Yeah I wanted to kill Jon for spilling my secret but I couldn't be mad at him because he did in a way help us get together. Bryan and I dated for 4 months. We broke up because his family had to move away. But during those times Bryan and I fell in love and had a pretty good relationship. I was shy as hell around him but he seemed to love it. I still remember our first dance to Hold On by Wilson Phillips during a party that I wasn't suppose to be at and our first kiss in the back seat of the car when we took a day off from school to go to Shimoda. We gave each other notes every day in the beginning of school and the end of school. Stand outside by our buses talking and say I love you to each other before we left to get on our buses. Bryan and I would sit on the side of the window since our buses were right next to each other and mouth cute things to each other until our buses pulled out. I also knew that I would find him waiting for my bus in the beginning of school and would walk me to my classes. Mrs. Pettite would usually have the person behind us correct our math papers as she told us the answers and Bryan would always pass my paper back with little cute comments. Mrs. Pettite never said a word about those comments if she collected them. I think I only got to correct his paper once or twice. I went to one of his basketball games and he came to one of my gymnastic mets. Everything was perfect.

The day Bryan left was the hardest day. It was a rainy Sunday morning on June. 14. I skipped out on church that day because Bryan was coming by my house to say a last good bye just by ourselves. Everyone was out of the house so we had the whole house to ourselves. We sat on my couch holding each other and me crying of course. Getting in as much hugs and kisses as we could. Promising each other we would keep in touch and to never forget what we had. Eventually he had to leave to help his family pack up the last of their things. While he did that Jon and Amber came over to support me and we went around pass and took some sticker pictures. We figured he could add it to his photo album we made for him at his going away party. Jon, Amber, and I arrived at the lodge 30 mins before Bryan's family took off for the airport. We watched them load up the van and then Bryan's family gave Bryan time to say good bye to everyone. I was the last person he said good bye to. One more kiss, one more hug, and one last I love you...then he was climbing in the van and with one last wave good bye he was gone. I didn't start crying until he started to pull away.

I know that's a lot to remember from a relationship that lasted for only 4 months and was so long ago. But its kinda true what they say about how you never forget your first love. I have moved on and grown from that experience. It did take me until I met Marc to fully get over Bryan. Bryan was my first love but Marc was my first true love. I thought that getting over Bryan was hard but trying to get over Marc is a huge challenge for me. Then again 5 years of love is hard to get over....